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I feel in a very deep thinking mood right now so I'm just going to ramble on about things here, somewhat to make myself feel better and somewhat to sort out my thoughts. I warn it is going to be extremely random, but not in a bad, emo sense haha just random.

I've been having nightmares recently. Generally I'm not the type to have nightmares or dreams and actually remember them, that's why these stick out so much in my mind. I didn't really believe in dreams having meanings behind them until recently. The most recent nightmare seemed completely ridiculus to me at first but it terrified me all the same. I couldn't stop shaking for hours after waking up in a frenzy. Upon going over it multiple times in my head throughout the day, I came to realize the potential reason for the nightmare. It seems my mind was preying off a deep fear I have, something I'd been attempting to unconciously ignore lately. I suppose it's good to be reminded of these things occasionally. And this is a fear I should never forget I suppose. I'd actually do something about it, something that would make me happier but I've been stuck home sick for a few days.

That reminds me of when I was younger(though I suppose I'm not that old right now haha). I used to get sick a lot, up until my final year of high school. I was pretty much sick every other holiday too which sucked. I can remember having to stay home on Christmas day with my dad while my family visited other people. I wonder why I got sick so much haha, maybe that's a sign I should've eaten healthier back then? Meh, can't do much about it now, and kids can be so mysterious about their reasons behind things. Have you ever thought back to something you've done as a kid, but for some reason, you just can't understand your own reasoning behind it? I find this fun to do, quite a few things I did as a kid make no sense to me now XD

Gah! I really hate being sick >_< My mom thinks it could be my meds or swine flu still. I'm quite sure its neither of those options. Well, whatever the case, it'll reveal itself over time. At least the nausea has subsided for now.

I recently have been obsessed with Harvest Moon: Another Wonderful Life. Ugh, it's so addictive! Since I've been stuck at home, I've been playing it non-stop! I have a quaint little farm with a husband and son. For some reason I want to cosplay as the main girl from it XD

Vocaloids! I've been brainwashed into loving them! Not that its such a bad thing XD I really like Rin and Len, I think they may be my favourites so far. Maybe its the sad story between the two of them depicted in quite a few of their songs? I'm a sucker for sob stories. Soundless Voice and Proof of Life are two of my favourites. I thank my lovely ~XIIIsecrets for sending them to me and getting me hooked I like listening to Soundless Voice when I've had a bad day, for some reason it makes me feel a little better ^-^ I definitely want to cosplay from Vocaloids some day though I'm not sure which vocaloid I'd want to go as.

I think when I'm sick, I have the strangest day dreams. I had one early last night about travelling to another country and meeting up with a cosplayer I admire. It was very strange because I've never met this person before in my life and I know I'll never meet this person in real life. Normally the daydreams I have are either out of this world or very realistic and petty. So this one came right out of left field for me. I wasn't expecting it at all. I think I'll just attribute it to being sick haha Have you ever had a strange dream before?


Rant Time
I. Hate. Drama. Simple as that. I've come to realize that over the last few months. I hate when people break down for petty reasons and aim to make everyone else misreable just because they're upset. I find it infuriating. It's like those type of people think the world revolves aroung them, that their issues are the most important thing in the world. They don't realize that other people have problems just the same. No one person's issues are more important than another's (depending on the severity of course). Normally, I'm a fairly patient person and I'm blessed to have a few people who understand this and try to save me from these type of situations, but I find my patience with over dramatic people wearing thin very quickly. I also hate when they use drama to hide what they are actually feeling, like a moody five year old. I wish they would just say how they feel instead of beating around the bush!
End Rant

Ugh, I just had to get that out lol it's been bothering me for a while now. It may not make much sense but it's just my scrambled thoughts on the matter.

Lots of things to work on this week! I have two parties to help plan for goodness sake! *enter freakout mode* But I just can't get motivated T_T How do you guys motivate yourselves?

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Ciaossu,
Rin-chan


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